The only problem in your life is you.

Dear readers, the title says it all. This may seem harsh, but it's so true.Ever since I was little my dad used to always say this. At first it made me so mad haha that's because I never wanted anything to be my fault. I always wanted to blame other people for situation or things going on in my life. The truth is, we have complete control over one thing in this entire world. Ourselves. We can't change other people or make them do stuff, trust me I've learned that the hard way. The only thing we can change is ourselves. When I look back on some of the events that occurred in my life so far I think about how I could've reacted better or things that I could have done differently. I get so frustrated daily with the human race. Questions like "why are you so stupid" or "do you have any common sense" run through my mind constantly. As I'm currently siting on a soccer bus driving six hours to a game and having to write this blog post from the convienece of my iPhone, I look around and see people. I think to myself that the crazy thing is that out of all these people I can only control one. And that's myself. It makes me frustrated. Everything in me wants to be able to control people. I want to be able to make their voices quieter and less annoying. Be able to control the things they say and most of all be able to control their actions. But I can't, and that's what sucks. But at the same time it's refreshing. Refreshing to know that I only have to be responsible for one person. Refreshing to know that I only have to control one person. I only have to worry about what comes out of my mouth and the actions that I take. I'm a control freak, I like to have control all the time, and that's been something that I've had to let go these past few months. I have decided that instead of constantly worrying about what other people are going to do, I'm going to be selfish and worry about myself. Whatever they do is their problem not mine. I'm going to look for ways not to change other people, but to change on how I react to them. People will make you mad and they will piss you off and they will disappoint and let you down, trust me I know, but they can't control you. Only you can. Only you have the power to control your thoughts and feeling and emotions and action. Yourself is the only thing in this entire world that you have 100% control over. This is an extremely hard concept to gain control over, and it's something that I struggle and fail at daily. But once we all can understand that we can't do anything about anybody else but us, the feeling is freeing and magical. :)

Love can cure all your problems.

Dear readers, today I will be talking about love. Not the boy girl kind of love, or kissing and physical love (that's a whole other blog post), but human love. "But isa what is human love?" Simple. Loving humans. This is something that I have been thinking about and struggling with this topic. A couple weeks ago in my AP English class, we learned a new word, misanthrope. This word basically means human hater. For the next two days, I took a journey of self discovery and found that I was in fact a misanthrope. Not in the way as to where I hate everybody, but to the the way where I don't want love. I enjoy being on my own, and I just like doing thigs myself. The truth is people, you cant. I have been going through so many things in my life recently, and 2014 has gotten off on a rough start for sure. As I have been struggling for a while, I decided to do this on my own without any help. Yeah that plan sucked. The truth is, I cant do it without people encouraging me and smiling at me and even giving me a nice little hug. As humans we want love, not just want but we NEED IT!!! We want people to be nice to us, and to wave at us when we let them in front of us on the road. This is the thing that I truly believe is missing in our society, myself included. Its hard to love people, but its worth it. My good friend Madison Thomas loves people so much. The other night when I was just under a lot of pressure, I called her on the phone and was telling her everything I was going through. I told her not to worry about it and not to get involved. She said this "Isa, im with you no matter what you say.". That's love. We don't know what people are going through, or how much a smile would mean to somebody. People think that love has to be some huge elaborate scheme that you throw together for valentines day, but its not. The best love is real and raw. Just listening to somebody, that's love. High fives, that's love. Telling them the truth, that's tough love haha. I am so selfish. I want what's best for Isa Perdichizzi. I forget to consider what others may be going through. I don't take into account that everybody is going through something, and they might just need some TLC (Tender Love and Care). Ummmm I hope you enjoyed this post, but this one was for me. This is what I needed to get out. I think that im superman, and that I can go through everything in life on my own, but that's not true. That's why there are other people on this world, so that we can encourage, and love people. So maybe leave a nice note for somebody tomorrow, or just go out of your way to share a smile or a little laugh. Nothing makes me happier and feel more loved, than a solid joke. Everybody has a story, and its not our job to read it, but it is our job to make sure the book doesn't get destroyed. (that was a terrible analogy). I have a whole other blog post to write about friendship, but I thought this would be a good starting place. Even the toughest people need love.


I wrote this blogpost on my school tablet, which is terrible, so blame it for any spelling problems.

Plans

Hello folks today im going to talk to you about plans. What have you planned for your life? Since this is the start of a new year, why don't you just think about what you've planned for this year. See im not a huge believer in planning out your life or your year, or even your day. I would like to go ahead and apologize in advance for the numerous spelling and grammar mistakes that i know i will make. Anyway back to plans. I think plans are like blueprints for your life, but if we want blueprints then why don't we just build a flipping house. Life is loose, so if we have tight plans we are going to miss out on some amazing things. People call me ADD which could be true, but i would like to think of myself who doesn't want to miss out on a single thing that life has to offer. I know that you are all probably thinking "But isa, if we don't plan we wont be prepared!!!" Im not saying that you should have no vision or drive or anything in your entire life planned out haha because you should, but at the same time ive met people who know exactly where they want to go to college, exactly what type of guy they want, all their spring break trips for the rest of their life. THATS RIDICULOUS!!! I think that we need to have a general direction of our life, but then leave it up to God. Jeremiah 29:11 says "For i know the plans i have for you declares the Lord, Plans to prosper you and not to harm you. Plans to give you a hope and a future." So even if we do plan something, God has the ability to change it in a second. Plans are going to break. People these days have their heart set so much on what they have planned, that when it doesnt happen it leads to such disappointment. My favorite movie in the entire world is Dan In Real Life, if you havent seen it im not your friend anymore (totally kidding), there are two brilliant quotes in this movie. The first is when they plan to go bowling, but then the bowling alley is close haha the main character, Steve Carrell, then says "Life is full of disappointments." But seriously. Life is rough, trust me i know. There are sometimes i just sit and my room and cry, no judgement, and i think to myself "was this apart of my plan?" Normally the answer is no. I've decided that i am done planning, because honestly it doesnt do any good. Think of some times in your life that were super amazing and incredible and you cant even explain it!!!! Were any of these moments exactly planned out? Odds are no. I totally went off on a bunny trail here (is that what that's called?). Back to my second quote, which is where i got the idea of this blog name. At the end of the movie where everything ties together for Steve, he says "plan to be surprised." Yes. Thats exactly what ive decided to do. Im going to tell you a really weird story, actually its not that weird. Last summer i was at schlitterbahn with my dad, my sister gabby, and a family friend braydon, We all went on this thing called like "crazy river" or something like that haha. When you first enter "crazy river" it immediately sweeps you off your feet in a "crazy" strong current. At first we were all fighting with the current, grabbing on to the walls or anything that would keep us stable. It was not fun at all. It was more like a death scentence. Then Gabby was like "just let go!" so thats what i did. I found that once i finally released the walls and stopped trying to fight the current it was 10000000000 times more fun. Thats how i feel about life. Give up my plans and let God handle it, besides thats his job anyway. I know some people wont agree with me, but hey this is the internet :)