Chop

Dear readers today I'm going to talk about hair cuts. You know when you cut your hair and you immediately regret it...that's what happened to me about a week ago (feel free to sing that part). Last week over thanksgiving break I was chillin with my cousins and sisters at the local nail salon in Griffin Georgia, when we thought to cut my hair. My super talented rad cousin Amanda is a hair person so she said she could do it for me that afternoon. I was so happy because I thought I could finally look like Taylor Swift!!!! So we head back to my cousins house and get everything set up. Btw I just want to clarify that my cousin is 26 it's not like I let some 12 year old cut my hair. Anywayyyy she put the little apron thing around me and just began to cut. I was freaking out the whole time. After getting about 9 inches cut off I was freaked. I thought it was going to be perf and it's not. So now I am currently taking tons of vitamins to make my hair grow back haha the end.   

Jk. I would never just tell y'all a story about my hair cut, there is a metaphorical life lesson in this. I wanted something different I wanted to change. I thought that since short hair looked fab on Taylor it would look great on me. Ha no. In life when we are going through a bunch of nasty hard stuff we tell ourselves "if only I could have a clean slate" "if only I could have a do over" "if only I could be like this person" everything will be peachy. But that's not the case. We have to learn how to embrace our circumstances and ourselves. Because most of the time a fresh start just makes things worse. We as humans have a tendency to run or be lazy. In my case I hated blow drying my long hair like it took forever and so I was like I'll just cut it all off and it will take like two seconds to dry. Yes, it does take very little time to dry, but it takes like a freaking hour to style and if I don't style it I look like a boy. So I really just made more work for myself. We need to learn how to confront our problems, because just because we run or attempt to change the truth is you'll never get a fresh start or a do over, and your problems will just be there waiting for you once you figure that out. Luckily my hair will grow, but you can't grow a new life. :) 

Haha.

This post has no meaning. This post really has no point of being written, except for the fact that this blog is a lie. My younger sister, Sophia, brought it to my attention that this blog isn't even funny. A blog that's domain name is "laughwithisa" should at least be slightly funny. I started to really think about this and I wanted to apologize for the super depressing not funny posts. So I am now making a vow to you as readers. I'm going to start writing more funny stuff. Like jokes I hear in the hall, or embarrssing moments, heck I'll even write about my boy problems (which don't exist). Well that truly is all I had to say. So laugh on readers, laugh on.

If you love something...

I've gotten a few complaints that my posts are too long haha so this one will be brief. I think a lot. Most of the time my thoughts are formed and sculpted through real life experiences. I'm never going to come on this blog and complain. I will never wine about stuff I'm going through. But I will vaguely write about it.

  There's an old saying that says "if you love something let it go". I think that saying is complete bull. I think that if you truly love something you fight like hell to keep it, and if you do lose it, you fight even harder to get it back (excuse my language). Love isn't a game, it's not something that once you get tired of it or you are unhappy you just give up. That's not true love. And if you do that, I have reason to believe that you never truly loved it. Love isn't easy, it's hard, it's messy, but it's worth it. It should be worth it, worth it enough to not take the easy way out. It should be worth fighting for. 

More.

I'm seventeen years old, my life hasn't even really begun. This used to terrify me, the fact that I am only seventeen years old and life is already exhausting. This stressed me out and kept me awake to think about that I've already gone through so much, and that I have still so much to go through. But then I changed my point of view. The average person lives until about 80. I'm planning to live until forever, but let's stick with 80 to keep the math simple :). That means that I have 63 years left of life. 63 years to write my story. 63 years to create memories and tales that will be passed down through my family long after I'm gone. I feel like we think that life defines us, but when really we define life. We define what it is we want, and wether or not we want to get it. I am about to enter my senior year of high school, and looking back I realize what I want. I want more than this, I want more than petty drama, more than having to be popular, more than always having to have a boyfriend, more than having to look a certain way or act a certain way, more than having to follow a strict set of rules. No, I thirst for something bigger. When I die i want to look back and be like HECK YES! I want my life to mean something. I want to be somebody that my friends and family are proud of. I heard a great saying today, and it goes like this..."You only live once, but if you do it right, once is enough." Thats what i want. The truth is, you dont get a do over. This is it. You get one shot. Im going to tell you a story that may or may not have anything to do with this convo. It was my sophomore year, and we had a huge soccer game against our rivals...Regents. I was turnt for this game. So excited. So nervous. Anyways we started playing and it was a very aggressive game haha. Im pretty sure we were losing haha. I am a very emotional player, meaning that i get really into it and mad A LOT. So then i got fouled in the box which meant i got a penalty kick. For those of you not knowing what a penalty kick is, its when you get a direct shot on goal, one on one with goalie. As i was standing there gettng ready to take my shot, i got distracted. I started to think about all the people watching, my teamates hoping i would make this, and the other goals we would need to score after to win the game. Well i missed my shot. I missed a clear shot on goal. Probably one of the most embaressing things ever haha. But it did teach me someting, if you think to hard, youll miss it. Thats kinda how life is, if we get distracted by all of the little things, and the meaningless things, and money, and stupid stuff like drugs, we will miss out on life. And you only get one shot at life. You dont get a do over. So im done. Im done with ppleasing other people, and sacrificing my morals and own happiness. I have realized that no matter how many people hate you, you can still have fun by yourself. Besides true friends are those who stick around...ok getting distracted, I will have to write a friendship blog soon. Anyways i think of life as a tree. A tree that grows a lot of fruits. Some fruits are tasty and yummy and can make you feel awesome, others are rotten and sour. But if you dont eat from the tree, you will starve to death. Yeah I have gone through some tough times, and made some stupid descisions, but the good news is...I HAVE 63 YEARS TO WRITE A BETTER STORY. Sorry but im stoked. Yeah i like this blog and really do try and pour my heart into it, but sometimes it makes no sense. Sorry if this made no sense haha :)

Pointed fingers starting fires

Conflict. It's a part of life and there is no way around it. If you have not experienced conflict in your life then there is an 100% chance that you're a robot. Conflict can come in many way shapes or form. It can be conflict with a sibling a coworker a parent a friend a teammate or anybody. Not everybody in the whole entire world will agree with everything you say all the time. The important thing about conflict is knowing how to handle it so you can maybe salvage that relationship. As many of my friends know, I am very bad at this part. When somebody says something to me that i don't like I come unglued. I go into attack mode and completely lose it. I've had several arguments where I say "oh my gosh I'm so done with this relationship.". That's not right. Yes there are circumstances when it is probably the best thing to do to end that relationship, but a lot of times it's worth fighting for. If relationships were easy then that would be boring haha. The problem with a lot of people is that they don't shut up and listen and they thing they're right. I fall into this categorie big time. I'm to good at conflict because it makes me crazy. The other day I got in a fight with one of my best friends and it was bad. We yelled and screamed and texted things that neither of us meant and I was ready to dispose of this friendship because I was not willing to accept I could be wrong or at least have some fault. Nope. This girl loves me and she texted me and reached out saying that she wasn't going away and that even though our relationship can be a rollwecoaster she was going to stick around for the ride. My friends that's called love. Sometimes you have to retire the sword and love. Conflict with anybody is stressful. The easiest way to resolve conflict is to love. I know I've already written a blog about love but it's so crucial to our lives. Sometimes you have to learn to hear words that you hate and realize your wrong. I have so many amazing people in my life and I'd be devastated to lose any of their friendships or relationships. Lol because I'm again writing this blog post on a bus, but this time the softball bus. I don't know why I can just think better on a bus. When you are having a conflict that really just means there is an absence of love. It's important to know that conflict, but it's even more important to know how to handle it. I feel like I'm rambling on but I just have so many thoughts and I want to get them out thE best way possible. I get it that not all conflict can be mended. for those of you whose parents have gotten a divorce or are in the process of, are probably wanting to hit me in the face. Divorce sucks. But sometimes like I said relationships can't be mended, or they can and people just don't want to put forth the effort. You can not fully love people without two people equally working together to resolve conflict. I could write for hours on this topic, but I'm going to stop because I dont want to be overwhelming. Haha have a great day. Don't forget you can email me at anytime with questions, blog ideas, or if you just need a friend. Iperdichizzi@gmail.com

Growing pains.

Dear readers, I hope everything is going well in your lives. The reality is that some of you are actually going through pretty serious stuff. So today I want to encourage you. It's not easy. every time I'm going through something hard I always here the same thing "everything's going to be ok". That feels like a lie. How do people know when stuff is going to be ok. So I've developed a statement to help myself, and it might help you. "it might not ever be ok again, but It will get better." that's the only thing I can promise you. It will et better. The title of this post is called "growing pains". I have been thinking about this post for about 2 weeks now, and I wanted to make sure that the title is just right.  I named it growing pains, because it hurts to grow. When I was little and was still growing, I used to complain all the time about aches and pains. My parents would say "that's just growing pains". The truth is, is that everybody stops growing physically at some point, and then we don't experience those growing pains anymore. But we never stop growing mentally, emotionally, or spiritually. Growing pains do not occur only in physical growth, but they occur in emotional, spiritual and mental growth as well. Infant sometimes it hurts more to grow in these areas than any other. I'm always told that everything that happens is for a reason and that it will bring good in the future. That is so hard for me to

Understand. I struggle with that so much. It hurts to go through pain and struggles, but I have to believe that I'm growing through uncomfortable circumstances, or else I would go crazy. So many times we just want to give up and say "enough, I can't take it anymore." but then what good would that do. Countless times I have just wondered "what the heck? Why is this happening" then I get mad. Real mad. But that's ok, it's ok to be upset and it's ok to be mad, it's natural. I'm not trying to tell you that you have to be ok with everything going on, but I am encouraging you not to quit and not to give up, because you are growing. Honestly, you will always deal with crap. Always. Life will never be perfect, and you will never stop growing. Life is hard and it hurts and brings you to tears and makes you question everything you've ever known, and makes you angry and confused and completely lost. It can bring so much pain. But the good news about pain, is that your growing. And that you'll come out of whatever your going through stronger. I know that words and encouragement don't take away the hurt and struggle you are going through, but it helps. It's so hard to think about "growing" in the midst of chaos, but it is happening even if you don't know it. Growing is painful, but it's worth it. 

The only problem in your life is you.

Dear readers, the title says it all. This may seem harsh, but it's so true.Ever since I was little my dad used to always say this. At first it made me so mad haha that's because I never wanted anything to be my fault. I always wanted to blame other people for situation or things going on in my life. The truth is, we have complete control over one thing in this entire world. Ourselves. We can't change other people or make them do stuff, trust me I've learned that the hard way. The only thing we can change is ourselves. When I look back on some of the events that occurred in my life so far I think about how I could've reacted better or things that I could have done differently. I get so frustrated daily with the human race. Questions like "why are you so stupid" or "do you have any common sense" run through my mind constantly. As I'm currently siting on a soccer bus driving six hours to a game and having to write this blog post from the convienece of my iPhone, I look around and see people. I think to myself that the crazy thing is that out of all these people I can only control one. And that's myself. It makes me frustrated. Everything in me wants to be able to control people. I want to be able to make their voices quieter and less annoying. Be able to control the things they say and most of all be able to control their actions. But I can't, and that's what sucks. But at the same time it's refreshing. Refreshing to know that I only have to be responsible for one person. Refreshing to know that I only have to control one person. I only have to worry about what comes out of my mouth and the actions that I take. I'm a control freak, I like to have control all the time, and that's been something that I've had to let go these past few months. I have decided that instead of constantly worrying about what other people are going to do, I'm going to be selfish and worry about myself. Whatever they do is their problem not mine. I'm going to look for ways not to change other people, but to change on how I react to them. People will make you mad and they will piss you off and they will disappoint and let you down, trust me I know, but they can't control you. Only you can. Only you have the power to control your thoughts and feeling and emotions and action. Yourself is the only thing in this entire world that you have 100% control over. This is an extremely hard concept to gain control over, and it's something that I struggle and fail at daily. But once we all can understand that we can't do anything about anybody else but us, the feeling is freeing and magical. :)

Love can cure all your problems.

Dear readers, today I will be talking about love. Not the boy girl kind of love, or kissing and physical love (that's a whole other blog post), but human love. "But isa what is human love?" Simple. Loving humans. This is something that I have been thinking about and struggling with this topic. A couple weeks ago in my AP English class, we learned a new word, misanthrope. This word basically means human hater. For the next two days, I took a journey of self discovery and found that I was in fact a misanthrope. Not in the way as to where I hate everybody, but to the the way where I don't want love. I enjoy being on my own, and I just like doing thigs myself. The truth is people, you cant. I have been going through so many things in my life recently, and 2014 has gotten off on a rough start for sure. As I have been struggling for a while, I decided to do this on my own without any help. Yeah that plan sucked. The truth is, I cant do it without people encouraging me and smiling at me and even giving me a nice little hug. As humans we want love, not just want but we NEED IT!!! We want people to be nice to us, and to wave at us when we let them in front of us on the road. This is the thing that I truly believe is missing in our society, myself included. Its hard to love people, but its worth it. My good friend Madison Thomas loves people so much. The other night when I was just under a lot of pressure, I called her on the phone and was telling her everything I was going through. I told her not to worry about it and not to get involved. She said this "Isa, im with you no matter what you say.". That's love. We don't know what people are going through, or how much a smile would mean to somebody. People think that love has to be some huge elaborate scheme that you throw together for valentines day, but its not. The best love is real and raw. Just listening to somebody, that's love. High fives, that's love. Telling them the truth, that's tough love haha. I am so selfish. I want what's best for Isa Perdichizzi. I forget to consider what others may be going through. I don't take into account that everybody is going through something, and they might just need some TLC (Tender Love and Care). Ummmm I hope you enjoyed this post, but this one was for me. This is what I needed to get out. I think that im superman, and that I can go through everything in life on my own, but that's not true. That's why there are other people on this world, so that we can encourage, and love people. So maybe leave a nice note for somebody tomorrow, or just go out of your way to share a smile or a little laugh. Nothing makes me happier and feel more loved, than a solid joke. Everybody has a story, and its not our job to read it, but it is our job to make sure the book doesn't get destroyed. (that was a terrible analogy). I have a whole other blog post to write about friendship, but I thought this would be a good starting place. Even the toughest people need love.


I wrote this blogpost on my school tablet, which is terrible, so blame it for any spelling problems.

Plans

Hello folks today im going to talk to you about plans. What have you planned for your life? Since this is the start of a new year, why don't you just think about what you've planned for this year. See im not a huge believer in planning out your life or your year, or even your day. I would like to go ahead and apologize in advance for the numerous spelling and grammar mistakes that i know i will make. Anyway back to plans. I think plans are like blueprints for your life, but if we want blueprints then why don't we just build a flipping house. Life is loose, so if we have tight plans we are going to miss out on some amazing things. People call me ADD which could be true, but i would like to think of myself who doesn't want to miss out on a single thing that life has to offer. I know that you are all probably thinking "But isa, if we don't plan we wont be prepared!!!" Im not saying that you should have no vision or drive or anything in your entire life planned out haha because you should, but at the same time ive met people who know exactly where they want to go to college, exactly what type of guy they want, all their spring break trips for the rest of their life. THATS RIDICULOUS!!! I think that we need to have a general direction of our life, but then leave it up to God. Jeremiah 29:11 says "For i know the plans i have for you declares the Lord, Plans to prosper you and not to harm you. Plans to give you a hope and a future." So even if we do plan something, God has the ability to change it in a second. Plans are going to break. People these days have their heart set so much on what they have planned, that when it doesnt happen it leads to such disappointment. My favorite movie in the entire world is Dan In Real Life, if you havent seen it im not your friend anymore (totally kidding), there are two brilliant quotes in this movie. The first is when they plan to go bowling, but then the bowling alley is close haha the main character, Steve Carrell, then says "Life is full of disappointments." But seriously. Life is rough, trust me i know. There are sometimes i just sit and my room and cry, no judgement, and i think to myself "was this apart of my plan?" Normally the answer is no. I've decided that i am done planning, because honestly it doesnt do any good. Think of some times in your life that were super amazing and incredible and you cant even explain it!!!! Were any of these moments exactly planned out? Odds are no. I totally went off on a bunny trail here (is that what that's called?). Back to my second quote, which is where i got the idea of this blog name. At the end of the movie where everything ties together for Steve, he says "plan to be surprised." Yes. Thats exactly what ive decided to do. Im going to tell you a really weird story, actually its not that weird. Last summer i was at schlitterbahn with my dad, my sister gabby, and a family friend braydon, We all went on this thing called like "crazy river" or something like that haha. When you first enter "crazy river" it immediately sweeps you off your feet in a "crazy" strong current. At first we were all fighting with the current, grabbing on to the walls or anything that would keep us stable. It was not fun at all. It was more like a death scentence. Then Gabby was like "just let go!" so thats what i did. I found that once i finally released the walls and stopped trying to fight the current it was 10000000000 times more fun. Thats how i feel about life. Give up my plans and let God handle it, besides thats his job anyway. I know some people wont agree with me, but hey this is the internet :)